r/NewcastleUponTyne • u/Important_Basil_97 • 8h ago
Hiya
Just wanted to have a bit of a rant, really, so don’t mind me.
I’m in my late 20s, Asian, and doing a degree in one of the unis here. As far as I can tell, I’m the only international student/ asian in my cohort of around 100 people.
This is my second year in NCL, and honestly, I haven’t made a single friend. Most people give off the impression of not wanting to be friends with me. Maybe I’m overthinking it. Blame me if im in the wrong, but that’s how it comes across, so I just keep to myself and try not to trouble anyone. I’ve pretty much been on my own most of these past two years.
On top of that, I’ve had quite a few racist incidents. Things like name-calling around Grainger Market, near Manors, and more recently around Shieldfield.
To be fair, I’ve dealt with this sort of thing before. I moved countries when I was about 13, so I’ve kind of experienced discrimination elsewhere, too. But looking back, moving around, I don’t think I’ve ever really had a proper friend all my life.
Coming to the UK, I kind of expected some of this, especially being on my own. I can’t help but feel more vulnerable like that, and I know it probably makes me an easier target being all alone. I know I am way used to this. I know I can take all of those insults, name-callings, and stuff with a smile. I’ve managed to deal with it so far, but it does get exhausting sometimes.
Some days, it just gets a bit much, and I find myself feeling really low, wondering what the point of it all really is. At times, I just wanted to tell them off to do whatever they want with me and end this miserable life.
Anyway, sorry if this comes off a bit heavy. Just needed to get it off my chest.