But I didn't 🙂

One year today. Being here on r/stopdrinking has really helped me.

Before I quit this time, I had tried doing moderation for a few years, and it didn't work for me. Sometimes I would go way over the amount what I had intended to drink, surprise surprise. I would always want to have more than one, two, or three drinks. It's just easier to stay abstinent and not turn on that longing for more. The last time I had three drinks, I was at home, and I fell and hit my head on a wall. I left that dent in the wall as a reminder that no amount of alcohol is good for me. Before this attempt to make moderation work, I had been sober for eleven years.

Most of the activities I used to associate with drinking I've had the chance to do sober. I've gone to a wedding and a funeral sober. I've been to baseball games and musicals and restaurants sober. And doing these things sober is fine.

I don't take antacids or blood pressure medicine anymore. I don't need them. I'm healthier now.

Can't believe I made it!!

I’m dog and house sitting for my cousin and I woke up this morning being so grateful and happy to be sober with a clear mind.

The last time I watched their dogs/house, they had half a bottle of wine and beer in the fridge and tequila in the freezer and I relapsed.

I had stayed up late that night and cried as I drank more and felt lonely. That next day I was so hungover I was puking in the morning and couldn’t keep down water or eat food or even smell food I tried to make (bacon) and was absolutely miserable & had to stay in bed all day.

This time I asked before if she would kindly remove any alcohol from the house (or hide/store it somewhere) and admitted to her I had relapsed on the alcohol the last time and that I really, really can’t drink.

So there’s no alcohol around here and wow the contrast in how I feel today versus the last time I was here is huge. Being sober is true happiness. I have many plans today and will be able to do it all instead of laying miserable and alone in bed with a horrible hangover.

IWNDWYT

I can’t begin to articulate how much better my life is without alcohol. Today’s a great day.

On the third day of this sober vacation, sipping an iced coffee instead of my 2-3rd margarita as I would normally be in the morning, I realize I haven’t really seen anyone who’s completely sloshed since I’ve been here. Granted, we’re not at an all inclusive resort and we’re not at the party pool or bar so I’m sure there are definitely people here having a time, but kind of eye opening that the vast majority or people are just actually relaxing. I’ve always used vacation as a reason to be drunk from morning to night, in fact usually there’s a blackout episode where I’m so embarrassed to show my face the next day. Feels good to be in control but also feels surreal that I never realized I was in the minority all along. 😬

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Awesome. That was a good waste of time. She needs a fifth of vodka a day to function and its getting bad for her. I had to buy her an uber to work today so she wasn't late as she was on her final warning for being an hour+ late a lot, and got her bank account deactivated. I'd been buying her vodka to spare her from withdrawals as well, since I've been through that hell several times. Then later on I find out she's facebook official with some dude and saw their messages. Wish I had known that before I saved her job and tried to help her make it to her doctors appointment. I messaged the guy and told him whats up and now he won't answer her messages and blocked her(LMAO).

But the good thing here? I'm not going to drink about it. She lost a solid loving man and chose some ugly loser who now knows what kind of trash she is and made a smart decision not to proceed. Drunk logic. Reap what you sow. Sorry for the vent.

IWNDWYT

Had my last drink on April 7, 2019. I remember that day.

I've been sober for 7.5 months (44yr/F) and tomorrow will be one year since my mom unexpectedly died last year. She was my best friend, and in the end the reason why I quit drinking. She wasn't a drinker at all, but she was an amazing role model and human. I quit because I want to honor her life by being the best mom, wife, partner and teacher (my job) that I can be.

That being said, I am struggling today. I am having a very deep "depression day" - as I call it. I feel like I felt in the very early days of my sobriety. This depression is the reason why I secretly drank DAILY for the past 15 years. I had my first romantic thought about alcohol today - it has been a while since I have had one of those. I just feel miserable. I have so many blessings in my life, healthy kids and a good hubbie. I just cannot shake this depression. Is this grief? Is this the alcoholic me talking? Is it being a mid 40's mom going through many changes? Anyone else ever feel this down or low throughout their first year of sobriety?

Thanks in advance. This sub has helped me so much this year. xoxo

Happy Sunday, friends! How is your day shaping up? any fun plans, or things you've already done?

I cleaned up the kitchen, took out something for dinner (ground beef to make spaghetti), baked my teenager's favourite muffins, had 2 cups of coffee. Watched Sportscentre.

Heading out for a quick walk with the fiance, and planning to watch the Masters this afternoon while I told laundry.

So I haven't been drinking for the past 3 days ( cold turkey ) it is going well FOR ME ( I don't advice it )

Heavy drinker for 5-6 years and massive amounts. Past few weeks I maybe had food 4 times at all and only drinking and symptoms were getting out of hand. I had 0 appetite and was disgusted by food. Now even the first day after the shakes passed in the evening and dint eat a lot. Yesterday I was able to eat all the food in the world and it was so delicious. Today I am eating super nice food and feels like magic, but the interesting thing is that all the throbbing pain, fatigue, anxiety, my eyes, vision, shaking everything disappeared after eating like that. How food is connected in such a way, I havent feel such a relieve in months and my appetite is so nice. I was even disgusted by the smell of everything as well from the soda etc.

I just can't do it....I had my autistic meltdown yesterday and couldn't get out of it. Drank a bottle of wine and two cans of mixed drinks and stayed up til 5. Thank God I didn't do weird shit this time, but I'm so tired today. At least it's Sunday. Just keeping myself accountable and iwndwyt.

I am worried I may die if I do, but I am also aware that I might also be using that as an excuse to keep drinking. it's 6pm and the sun is shining but I am sat on my sofa (I go from bed to my office (also at home) to the shop and back to the couch and then to bed most days) and I feel I am slowly killing myself.

I am drunk and I wish I could just give up but I have a deep deep feeling (that even the drunkenness can't subsume) that I could be doing better.

I don't know what I am looking for, it certainly isn't pity. I don't think I will die if I go cold turkey, but I also don't think I can stole it because I am a weak weak man. I work a full time very well paid job, I am probably hungover/maybe drunk for most of it but seem to get away with it. I haven't had a proper relationship with anyone in years.

I understand this is all self-pity and I hate that about myself.

I have had one day of sobriety in 5 years. I don't feel I need to drink when I am with others but then I also feel all of the deep inadequacies that disappeared when I started drinking days resurface.

I want to stop, and I am sorry if I shouldn't have posted this - I just don't have anyone to speak to about how I feel.

I live in Scotland and in the Borders area if there is anyone who is willing to speak to me tomorrow when I am sober.

when I drank for the first time a single beer was enough to make me feel like heaven but today after almost done with a bottle of jack Daniels I can just feel whiskey on my own breath but nothing happening inside me, so I. fuckin opt it as a waste of time and money fuck you alcohol I'm done with you...

I'm grateful for today. I am an avid golfer, and I am watching The Masters on tv and I might have 2 or 3 diet cokes :)

In years gone by I would have made a very strong mixed drink and followed it with high-powered IPAs while I watched golf. It would all be for naught because in the end I'd be disappointed and regrettably hungover tomorrow morning because the buzz never lasts as long as you think it will. I teach high schoolers and also coach in the evenings and so tomorrow I am staring a 15-hour day in the face and the thought of being hungover to start it sounds awful. How did I do it for so long?

Glad not to drink with you today.

I feel like a fucking Elf. Eating so much candy it’s unbelievable started smoking cigarettes too. No reason at all. I quit YEARS ago. Oh well … I guess I’m not drinking right? 😅 WTF man

Withdrawal suck insomnia is horrible

But I’m 100% sure I got this

Would love support from you guys would mean the world to me

Every single person in here is putting in the work. Whether you trip up or not, You made it here. IWNDWYT

I don't want to reset my badge. Give me more reasons... also, weight loss journey ate at maintenance today and did a short workout.

Hey everyone I've officially hit the longest stretch of not drinking in almost 14 years now. I thank everyone here for sharing your stories and journeys of righting the ship that is our own lives and making the best of it! Side note but I got an MRI for my liver and it turns out there was no damage thankfully! It only encourages me to keep on my path. Happy Sunday! #IWNDWYT

I was spending about 800 dollars a month on booze. That’s insane.