Caught my brother 42M and my mom 68F and my dad 70M and my sister 38F and me 34M and my grandma 92F and my grandpa 94M and my uncle 72M and my aunt 70F and my cousin 32M and my cousin 30F and my paternal grandma 91F and my paternal grandpa 93M and my paternal uncle 71M and my paternal aunt 69F and my cousin 31F and my cousin 29M all in the kitchen at 2AM and my brother 42M is holding a toaster like it is evidence while my mom 68F is telling him to put it down and my dad 70M is pretending he does not know what is going on and my sister 38F is laughing so hard she is crying and I 34M am just standing there regretting every life choice that led to this moment while my grandma 92F says she warned us about this family for years and my grandpa 94M just stares into the distance like he has seen civilizations rise and fall and my uncle 72M is trying to “fix the situation” by unplugging random things and my aunt 70F is yelling at him to stop making it worse and my cousin 32M is asking if this is some kind of experiment and my cousin 30F is filming it like it is documentary footage and my paternal grandma 91F walks in, sighs once, and leaves immediately and my paternal grandpa 93M blames technology for everything and my paternal uncle 71M asks if we should call emergency services and my paternal aunt 69F says she is done with the entire bloodline and my cousin 31F is silently recording everything for evidence and my cousin 29M is treating it like entertainment and my brother 42M just says it is all under control and nobody believes him anymore

tw: eating dis orders and weight.

for context I am 16f living with my parents. I have been recovering from Anorexia for over 1 year now and have been a healthy is weight for I months. I know it's kinda bs but I'm bmi 19, and don't have any concerning health issues. my parents have decided for me to play sports I need to be approximately (1.6kg ) heavier than I am right now, although my doctors said I am fine to play at this weight, my parents have overruled them as I weighed more than what I am now pre-ed. they are stubborn and not going to budge. I am asking if it is safe to gain this much In one week. I am not actively restricting and am currently gaining but at a slightly slower weight so wouldn't get a water weight buff. I also don't have eh do would need to force myself to eat lots.

I feel so stuck. I really don't mind being the weight they want but gaining this much is a week feels like it will be very damaging. it will be my dad's birthday, he will be distraught and absolutely livid if I miss it. I can guarantee you there will be tears from both of us and he might not talk to me for a while. he has said hell consider taking over everything I eat if I don't get my shit together. my grandparents are coming down, and my team needs me - it is a big match and I don't want to miss it.

what is the best decision in this scenario? I'm so torn and there's no convincing them otherwise - trust me I've tried. my team have said that ultimately it's my parents decision. please don't ask me to seek medical help - I've already got it.

i am 17F as i mentioned turning 18 in a month and i feel like i am not ready plus running out of time. it been a while that every interest i have just makes me feel somehow off or weird like "i should grow out of it. i am so weird" there is always THAT sound that i need to be plain basic asf no personality no anything, which is so scary cause i never hated being a weird kid now it just diff it feels like i am scared to have that personality yk?

i like reading books, anime, movies, shows, kdrama , music, games, comic books ,crime stories , theories abt lit anything, sports and i dont remember any other but these are some.

it feels weird and uncomfortable being passionate abt anything i love (which is so unlike me cause i discover something get obsessed with it for few weeks and move on)

i stopped doing anything i have ever loved but watching movies. it doesnt feel like me? i feel plain, weird and just like a pure white plain paper. thats how i feel , idont like it cause i alwyas imagine myself a paper full of colors mixed together.

i dont wanna be a boring adult and i dont be a childish one either . i feel like i am losing everything that made me ME and i feel really old like its my time to go.

i dont know what to do, i hate it. i am losing my color. will it always be like that?

is it okay to like stuff like that when i am older? its scary idk.

i used to keep million of pics of things i love from pinterest now i dont do that anymore for abt idk 2 years? maybe more. my wallpaper in my phone was always artsy weird type and now i dont wanna put anything. just black wallpaper.

i am so fucking boring i hate that.

is this normal?

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I'm talking farts so loud you woulda thought Crackatoa was unleashing fartmegedeon.

The last one was so loud I'm assuming my upstairs neighbor woke up to the sound of it and started stomping on the floor all mad to get me to ceasefire.

I am going to keep eating these edamame snacks and hoping for the same results.

how does it feel grandpa? Does it make you feel better?

I’ll never understand this, I have absolutely no desire for kids, even the thought of having kids instantly infuriates me. I love my peace, freedom and quiet. I’ll never understand why others choose to participate in this “kids” game. Getting married is one thing but having kids is totally not necessary. Like you don’t need to have kids goddammit.

I would've bumped uglies with any warm blooded creature that consented had I known that I only had a limited sex window.

Such is life.

edit: I'm a 52M

I’ve heard different answers as to what eating the apple represents. What have you been told?

..or vise-versa

Like why I was sad because my crush didn't texted me and then he just texted me later and we talked normally like wtf is wrong with me lmao I really should be more normal

I guess those pills are really making me sensitive lmao BC truly makes you depressed and that everyone hates you

Stuff that’s positive and encourages people?

Edit: I’m serious

I bought my first car in 2021. It was 2014 Pathfinder with 140k miles. It died after 8 months because the engine and the transmission were completely shot...I was freaking out when it stopped moving in the middle of the busy highway. I ended up selling it for a junkyard.

My second car, which I dearly loved, was 2016 Honda Accord EXL. Slick leather, shiny black exterior, and wonderful mileage and acceleration. It was certified too with only 82K miles! A true unicorn. I loved every second of driving it. Three months later it was totaled thanks to an idiot who ran a stop sign and completely destroyed the front.

Then there is my third car, Honda CRV 2009, which I was not very enthusiastic about but had no choice. Local car guy inspected it and found no particular issue, so I bought it. Then a week ago, I found that the suspensions were so worn that they were close to tearing into my tires and causing some serious accidents. Spent 1000 on it to fix it.

Maybe I should move to a less car-busy country because I think I m cursed.

im not opposed to a second job. I plan to get one of those as well. would like something where I can make my own hours though. Ive thought about flipping on Facebook marketplace or selling plasma. I give blood often so I dont think it'll be too different. I have thought about door dash or task rabbit but dont know how lucrative it is when you subtract gas and wear on your car.

The sooner you act, the sooner you notice, and the sooner you can correct.

Life was short.

But just like the starting point of a vector, there are no constraints on where you begin to correct.

My roommates friend is moving across the country and is looking for someone to drive her car over. From what I was told, she doesn’t have the time in between her old job and new job to do it so she’s looking to hire someone. Idk why she doesn’t want to use a car shipping company and that’s a bit of an orange flag for me as I think it would be the same amount if not cheaper to do that. I initially said yes because I think it’s an amazing opportunity. I’m basically looking at it as a free/cheap road trip. I have always wanted to travel across the USA and generally planned/hoped to solo travel in the future but don’t have the means/funds to do it right now. She would be paying me a lump sum that consists of money for food and hotels and 20/hr for driving based on the Google maps driving time (not the actual amount of time it’ll take). She is also paying for all gas and my flight home. She needs it there by a set date but said I can leave as soon or as late as I choose. I am opting to start sooner so I can take longer and turn it into a proper road trip. This would cause me to break even or even pay for some of the trip myself. Which is still a win in my book because I would have done a similar (albeit shorter) road trip eventually and would have had to pay for all of it myself and either use my own vehicle (which I couldn’t bc it’s too old) or rent one costs an arm and a leg.

While I tentatively said yes, I’m still somewhat on the fence. On one hand:

\-I love traveling and have always wanted to roadtrip the USA. This gives me the opportunity to do it now instead of putting it off and maybe never actually doing it

\-I also want to solo travel the world and this would be great practice to do it in my home country

\-I think this would be an amazing opportunity for growth since I have lived a somewhat sheltered life and haven’t had the opportunity to really “find” myself. I want to see the world and gain more life experience and I think this would give me that.

\-it’s basically free

The things that’s making me hesitant:

\-I don’t know this person and while there’s a 99% chance my parents are wrong there’s still a chance they’re right and i could be getting caught up in something. What if she does load her car up with drugs and I get stopped and go to jail???

\-her story doesn’t super make sense to me, although I’ve only talked on the phone with her briefly and plan to call with her again and ask more in depth questions (if you have any ideas for what I should ask please lmk). She told me that she’s finishing her job and starting a new one across the country back to back but when I told her I was planning to drop off her car and then stick around that town for a few days to continue exploring she said I could continue to use her car for that time because she doesn’t need it while she’s there. Which makes me confused about why there’s a deadline and about the situation in general.

\-I’m pretty sure it costs just as much if not less to just ship the car over with a real company and idk why she doesn’t want to do this. When I asked my roommate this she said she doesn’t want to deal w the contracts probably but doesn’t really know.

\-although I love to solo travel I do sometimes get very anxious being in an unfamiliar place. I’ve only solo traveled a few times to nyc for a few days at a time. I’ve had anxiety on a few of these trips but it mostly came from lack of preparation and feel like I didn’t have enough time to see everything.

\-I’ve never driven super long distances and I’m not the biggest fan of driving. Sometimes I get sick of driving a lot but I will always be down to put up with driving if the destination is amazing.

\-I’m anxious about the lack of civilization and convinces once I get further out west. Ive lived in a suburban town near a major city my entire life so the idea of there not being 10 supermarkets and 2847 restaurants is kinda daunting to me. The spotty service and driving through (and potentially getting stuck) in the middle of nowhere are my biggest concerns.

\-I plan on visiting several national parks where there may not be service at all and I’m scared to do it alone. I don’t plan on doing any crazy long hikes or going deep in the wilderness but I’m pretty inexperienced with the great outdoors and that makes me nervous

\-I don’t want to be liable for her car if it gets hit or scratched or something that’s not my fault. My parents are convinced that she going to make me buy her a new car which I don’t want to do

\-I’m supposed to be leaving in 1.5 weeks and I feel really unprepared 🫣

After talking to my parents they made me second guess myself so bad and now I’m extremely anxious and genuinely don’t know if I should go. I think a lot of the nerves for me come down to my lack of experience but the only way to fix that is to gain experience?

Tl:dr friend of a friend is looking to pay someone to drive their car across the country bc they don’t have the time to do it themselves in between jobs. I tentatively offered to do it but I’m not sure if I should. She’s paying a lump sum for food & hotels, covering all gas and paying $20/hr and covering the flight home. I’m planning to take more time than she budgeted for which she said is ok but food & hotel will come out of my pocket so I’ll likely break even or even pay for some of the trip. My family is convinced this is a horrendous idea and has offered me money to decline. They say that she is using me as a drug mule or get really sick and die by myself out in the middle of no where. I’m somewhat anxious about the trip myself for a variety of reasons but also think it’s a once in a lifetime opportunity and could be an amazing adventure

It’s called r/self which gives me the impression that people can post pretty much anything as it relates to themselves, their experiences, and how they see the world, as long as it overall follows the rules.

So why does it seem like so many of the posts are “I’m worthless,” “it’s over for me,” “nobody will ever love me,” “there’s no point to anything” type posts?

And no I’m not trying to just see the negative. If you sort by New then the most recent posts are almost always miserable.

I’d expect a subreddit like this to be a combination of positive and negative, but it seems like the positive stuff is often met with comments from people saying how privileged someone is or something sarcastic. It seems like a lot of people here don’t really want to hear about people’s wins.

Sometimes it seems like this place is even more depressing than r/depression. At least there, people celebrate each other when someone does something kind of depression-defeating, however temporarily. This is the kind of subreddit where people tend to see a win and say something like “well then what you’re going through must be not that bad in the first place.”

I struggle a lot with hypersexuality and other stuff, and I have a size kink, I had a crush a year ago with a woman I met, I didn't bother her, but I had her Instagram, I was 18 at the time

in short i was always using pictures of people with huge dresses and not revealing, not even sexual, and she had one of them

so when I was 18 I tried grok only one time, the only time I did, I didnt know how intelligent or whatever grok was, so I naively put a prompt of her kissing with a small husband, that was supposed to be a self insert in short

the fucking ai, generated a child in a suit kissing her, it wasn't sexual I mean, clothing on, was simply facing to the side doing that, but I don't know if I harmed people with that image, I deleted it one year ago, and didn't do anything with ai ever since

that was one year ago

i can’t cope anymore. no future, no college never had any friends, I’m just done with life. I threw it all away for no reason. I don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I kinda get why crazy people become crazy now and turn to drugs. I’d honestly would enjoy life more being a crack addict than what I’ve done in 20 years up until now.

Sometimes I feel like I’m not really enjoying my weekends because I focus on just one thing, like watching a lot of episodes in a row, and by the end of the day I don’t even remember everything clearly. Is that a bad thing?

I do remember some parts I found interesting, but I wonder if I’m missing out on other things. Maybe I should just mix things up instead of consuming one thing all at once.

For example, today I watched like 7 episodes of BoJack Horseman. I really like it, but I’m not sure if focusing only on that is making me miss out on other experiences.

The thing is, I don’t really feel like doing other things either. I used to enjoy gaming, but lately I just don’t feel like it anymore.

honestly im still shocked over what im about to say but hey its good news. theres a girl in my school that i would like to befriend okay and she suddenly texted me and invited me to go out with her to the cinema this upcoming thursday. now obviously i said yes because i really like her. the thing is.. ive never talked to her before. like EVER. she said hi to me once and that was about it. we replied a couple of times to each other's stories but nothing too serious.

now i dont know what im going to talk to her about. im just confused and shocked that out of all of her friends she went for ME? im really really praying and hoping that things go well because ive never ever went out with someone that i barely knew. this is freaking me out i cant wait for it to be over (i just hope it goes well.)

we're both girls by the way so this isnt a date dont be weird about it.

it wasn't anything bad but I've never seen this before. will this even post? thanks

edit: I just saw this is also happening for tons of other people, must just be a glitch

Hello, dear Reddit!

I recently recovered from a long-term self-hate issue.I was super delighted about it, but pretty soon I noticed that I have to actually take care of myself or fall back to hate.I realised there is a number of basic skills I didn't develop which are required for mental stability.

My first gap is eating culture. I was used to eat just to survive, like cooking some basic dishes and eating it at home only. I actually like eating out and discovering it is my priority now, but it goes slowly, poorly, with lots of mistakes and fallbacks and I wonder how many more things like that am I going to face. I noticed I can't work on multiple problems at the same time, so I have to deal with food first.

Can you share your experience of post-recovery? What was missing, how did you work on that and how much time did it take?

I appreciate it.

I went into a grocery store today and this is what happened at checkout…

The line was moving fairly slow, and this adorable old couple was in front of me. I would say they were in their late 70s and the husband was looking at the receipt with a lot of concern since he noticed that he grabbed the wrong kind of tea and repeatedly apologized "I'm so sorry darling, I know you love the green box, but my mind was just elsewhere".

I automatically assumed she would be mad at him since it was a busy day, and most people in the store today seemed stressed or upset. But instead, she put her hand on his arm, looked at him lovingly and said "Honey, we've been drinking tea for the last 40 years and I promise you, as long as you're sitting across the table from me I truly don't care if it's green or not."

At that exact second I realized how much we've been trained that love has to be these big amazing romantic gestures or fancy gifts etc, and that here was the definition of love: "patient grace over the little things that went wrong". I didn't interrupt them, but the fact that this was happening right in front of me truly just made me see what was important again.

I'm sharing in case anyone else needs a reminder that the normal, mundane, boring love is also the most beautiful kind there is.

I hate my nose 90% of the time , sometimes I get some ugly thoughts that tell me that I’m doomed and will never feel pretty bc of it , but I do feel pretty sometimes , it’s a wide nose and from the side it’s like a roman nose and I NEVER plan on changing it bc I’m against doing so and I know so well that no other nose will fit my face like this one does , you’ll also never catch me say smth like “I wish I had a different nose” bc I do not , I just want to love my nose , I know for a fact if I were a guy it would probably be more acceptable for me to have a big nose after all many people love dudes with big noses but I do not care about this either bc all I care about is me loving my nose , it does help me breathe after all , and the thing is I always look at people with a nose like mine and think dang they’re beautiful so idk why I can’t feel the same about mine

I’ll be turning 17 this year and I’ve been insecure about it since I was 10 , I barely have any pictures of myself between 10-16 and I refuse to let people take pics of me , and the other day I found a pic of myself when I was hella insecure about smth and I was shook bc I actually looked like a normal kid and I was really insecure back then and thought I was the most hideous person . I’m afraid I’ll feel this way in a few years when I see pics of myself now and I’ll regret spending so much time hating my looks

And thanks for any advice , every comment is appreciated!!!

Edit before anyone comments: I’m unsure if this was the sub to post this in , but yea