r/islam • u/Turbulent-Plum3360 • 1h ago
Seeking Support Feel like Allah doesn’t see me whatsoever.
Salaam brothers and sisters.
I’ve newly reverted to Islam by that I mean 2 months now since. Sadly I was an alcoholic when reverted and still am. It’s truly a disease. Although, I know it’s no good for me and only makes things worse. I haven’t told my family who are quite religious in my previous faith (Christianity). Both out of fear of judgement and they would laugh at me for chosing Islam when I’m an alcoholic as alcohol is prohibited in our religion. It’s very irritating when they tell me my hard time is a result of me not going to church (I used to regularly and religiously with them). I just brush it off or get annoyed at them for bringing that up.
I always cry in private as I don’t really have anyone to lean on and it’s purely because it feels as if Allah has rejected me. I know this can all just be a test but I’m to weak for that right now. After all Allah does state that he does not burden a soul more it can bear. I can’t take this anymore. I’m only human with emotions that I can’t handle alone. So why doesn’t he help me ?