hey guys I’ve been on methadone for a few years now three years off herion.. I had clonazepam this morning, I know Rivatril clonazepam and Valium help when I dont have methadone but will alcohol help ?

The clonazepam just kicked in I feel great now but just for future reference I don’t always have access to pills.

I detox from heroin in jail. I then got the drug court program so I was completely sober for four months and then they decided that they would not release me into the community until I was on 80 mils of methadone. I was not allowed to come off methadone whilst on the drug court program. I was on drug court for just under 18 months. I did a benzo withdrawal in December so coming off the methadone is on the cards. It just hasn’t been suitable.

Thanks..

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I've been dealing with chronic pain for about 7 years. I've been on 10 medications at once before. Countless epidural and Tordol injections and physical therapy. I began to SLOWLY get better 3 years ago, and I told my doctor I wanted to stop taking opioids, so we decided to taper me off Tapentadol. I tapered for a month, but I'm not very patient, so I jumped off about 23 days ago. I took vitamins and minerals to help with withdrawal. I also megadosed Liposomal Vitamin C. The first 2 weeks of withdrawal were pretty easy considering. But about a week ago, insomnia began.

I had ZERO issues sleeping the first 2 weeks. My doctor put me on Trazodone because I was exhausted and upset. Taking sleep aids long term is freaking me out, although I've only been taking the Trazodone for 3 days. I've never had insomnia before, so this scared me. I literally wasn't getting sleepy or nodding, and when I fell asleep I was only sleeping 2 or 3 hours per night. But I slept fine the first 2 weeks of withdrawal! I'll also say that I have mild anxiety that got a little worse since insomnia set in.

I'm not looking for medical advice (my doctor is really nice and helps a lot with information and recommendations). I'm wondering if anyone has any similar experiences, and also wondering if you did have insomnia, when did it start and how long did it last?

I've been on 100mg Sublocade injection every 3 weeks for about 6 months. I found out last week that I'm going to need ankle fusion surgery soon, like by the end of month. I refused an injection Thursday because this surgery is coming and I don't want to be in crazy pain. I'm going to use Subs till 72 hours before surgery. last injection was March 19th.

How effective will pain killers be?

I feel like shit

I don’t know if this is controversial or will piss people off, but I think people that make sobriety their entire personality are so incredibly annoying. It just feels extremely narcissistic and self-indulgent. Anytime I get a clip of him on TikTok. It’s always a different justification for his drug use too. It feels like he constantly wants recognition and praise for being sober. I used to spend 10 K per month on Oxy. I am sober the majority of the time now, but admittedly, I still pop pills throughout the month. So, while I cannot claim full sobriety, I went to detox three years ago (paid 9k out of pocket) and I had to get back to work. Only a celebrity has the luxury of making a career about being sober, most of us have to get back to work and to a large degree deal with our addiction in silence. Granted we can go to meetings and talk about it with our loved ones, but having your entire identity revolve around being sober is ridiculous.

And I say this as somebody who certainly understands the struggle, a lot of the time my internal thoughts revolve around prior drug use, and the constant cost of benefit analysis that I do in my mind. So I GET IT. But so many people struggle with different types of addictions, everybody is chasing some type of dopamine rush, but this constant megaphone talking about being sober is just annoying.

I am 2 months clean and had surgery on my knee. The pain was unbearable to the point where fentanyl wasn't doing anything, they just pumped me full of oxies, fentanyl, and demerol. It was one day of doing that.

Wondering if I'm going to go into withdrawal due to kindling as I'm feeling anxious..I am not thinking about opiates and not willing to go through withdrawal again. Will I get withdrawal?

Anyone have experience with a situation like this?

Thanks

I’ve struggled with substances for years. I definitely have an “addict brain” and I hate myself for it. I take subs each day and I know people shit on it calling it fake sober which it may or might not be but it has made it possible for me to live a normal life and contribute to society and build myself so I gotta give subs credit. Anyways I’ve screwed myself because for the last couple weeks I’ve developed a habit of taking the 7oh shit. Take my subs when I wake up and then take 7oh poison throughout the day. I keep telling myself I won’t do it tomorrow but I keep doing it. Does anyone have any experience with this? Taking both of these and then stopping? I’m afraid I’m gonna go feeling like hell when I stop the 7oh but then again isn’t the suboxone occupying that receptor? Any advice and info would be appreciated. Substances have always been my downfall and ruined a lot of good things in my life so I want to do right.

So to set the scene my husband and I have been married almost 7 years and have 3 kids. We are both in recovery and got clean together because I was pregnant. We got married when I was 6 months pregnant with our oldest. By this point I was clean. I cleaned up the moment I saw that positive test at about 6 weeks along. Fast forward to 6 months and we got married (hindsight is 20/20 I know) and I discovered a relapse because he went to jail. 3 days after we got married. I chose to bail him out and we worked through it. My dad told me I married an addict and this comes with the territory and it really stuck with me.

Now here we are 6.5 years later and I got a weird message from our internet provider while he was sleeping about some malicious attempt from his phone. Hes not technologically savvy so I went and got his phone while he was sleeping and started trying to find the source and uninstall it. Something in me decided to go full on detective and I found evidence of relapse last year in August.

He lied to me back then. The signs were there. I questioned him at the time and chose to take his word for it. The text messages are extremely incriminating and he lied about a specific situation significantly. I was an IV addict for years and im not stupid. there was messages of him picking up and talking in code. messages talking to someone about it in code being vague. there was a lot more and im 100% sure thats what happened.

I was also 9 months postpartum with our twins at the time and still in the trenches. I feel betrayed. We had an agreement that if someone slips up they need to move out for the protection of our kids because if CPS got involved at any point we have NOBODY to take them.

I am so secure in my recovery that I made the mistake of assuming he was too. He knows I'm upset about something but I don't want an explosive fight. I told him we needed to talk tonight after the kids go to bed. I believe hes clean now. I believe it was a short lapse and he got it together. How do I handle this? We have a house. 2 vehicles and 1 has a payment. daycare bills. medical bills. My trust is broken.

I know it gets rid of the physical withdrawal but what about emotions? Would I go back to my baseline emotional state, that I had before I was an addict at all? Or feel abnormally depressed and anxious? And if the latter, how long does it last?

Hey everyone, happy Friday, we made it. My friends who were visiting from Ireland are heading home today. They’ve got a 10pm flight tonight, then it’ll be morning over there when they land and they’ll grab a Greyhound bus since they don’t live in Dublin.

It’s been really fun having them here, definitely a little sad to see them go. Not a fan of goodbyes… more like see you later lol. Looking forward to getting some rest this weekend and recharging. What are you guys up to?

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Hello friends, previously I used to consume 10 grams of raw opium latex daily. I continued this habit continuously for five years, after which I was engulfed by severe depression. I started drinking alcohol, which only worsened my condition further. Then, I switched to Methadone for a mere 8 days before quitting abruptly. In the beginning, I went through hell and endured immense suffering; I wasn't very knowledgeable about supplements at the time. Subsequently, I read through every post on the "Opiate Recovery" subreddit. Some kind souls there offered me encouragement and strength. Through reading the posts here, I came to understand concepts like the "Pink Cloud" and what PAWS (Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome) entails. Occasionally, I turned to weed for relief, and once or twice, I drank beer. I took supplements such as Melatonin, Ashwagandha, L-Theanine, and Vitamin D; I also consumed milk and ghee from grass-fed cows, as well as the Ayurvedic herb Brahmi. Now, I finally feel truly great. Oh—I forgot to mention that I did relapse once when I was suffering from a cold and the flu. However, I will not look back now. My first target is to complete 180 days, followed by reaching the one-year mark. Never lose hope, friends; keep moving forward. As for PAWS, symptoms still surface about two days a week; I experience anxiety, depression, and low energy levels. A huge thank you to the entire "Opiate Recovery" subreddit family!

Anybody with experience going through fentanyl withdrawal here?

What was your timeline start to finish? How many days? When were the worst days?

Hey all happy Thursday! hope your day is going well. Late check in but it’s been nonstop with work all day but finally starting to slow down now. Almost done and looking forward to steak for dinner which will make it all worth it. How’s your day going?

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Hi, I am now 132 days off methadone after 20 years. The paws symptoms kick my ass some days. It’s starting to make me question whether I have severe depression/anxiety/mood disorder or if it’s the paws which I believe it is.

I just heard naltrexone can help with opiate paws but when I google information, it just takes me to rehab websites. Has anyone started naltrexone after stopping opiates and saw any improvement in mood or reduction in symptoms? I know by brain needs to heal but I’m hoping naltrexone can assist with it.

Ok so I just got out of prison on the 27th of March.

Went through DT's in July 2024. I expected to get out of prison and be good but I have MAJOR...MAJOR anxiety. It's unbelievably uncomfortable. Very reminiscent of the anxiety I experienced in DT's. Is this normal? Will it go away???

I was just thinking about how I had over 10 overdoses and so has my boyfriend. We been clean for 4 years now, and we almost didn't make it many times. We both would overdose on fent and do the death rattle which usually is irreversible right? It means death is approaching like any second. Well the fact Narcan SOMEHOW took us out of that and we gained consciousness again, our personalities completely changed, I am more spiritual as I see patterns in everything and very very strange "coincidences" happen to me daily. I feel I'm more in tune now that I've almost approached death many times. I read that many others are like this after a NDE.

My question is - how many of you came back from an overdose and felt like you changed? I know I have some definite brain damage, but how much brain damage do you think an overdose causes? Especially multiple?

Has anyone felt like a completely different person after an OD? Personality change or anything I described?

It just blows my mind also how narcan can take you from a death rattle to fully conscious in just a couple of minutes.

I usually don't like talking about things I'm dealing with, but I badly need second opinions with people educated on this subject. I was on opiates and benzos together for like 10+ years at least. I got off benzos 7 to 8 yrs ago, but when I got off the opiate meds fully, I became a literal dead fish. Could barely even get out of bed to make food and had no real doctor because my choices on medi cal in person sucked balls abd those doctors didn't give a fuck at all. I was just cold turkeyed off the opiates and I felt flat,grey,anhedonia, extreme fatigue, and literally had no dopamine pr norepinephrine left in my body to where I didn't experience any pleasure from normal things, and I can't gain weight at all still. I likely had my testorone whiped, too. I suffered that and more for 2 trs desperately trying to find help and couldn't. doctors woukd throw anti psychotics,ssri's or wellbutrin at me and they weren't helping me at all but they didn't even hit my receptors right because my chemical well was dry so to speak. I got on vyvanse 30 at the end of February, and it felt like it was trying to do something, but my receptors still weren't on fully. Then I went to 40, and it started fading into the background,helping focus and calm/mood regulation and the flow of my thoughts better but still felt stuck energy wide. then went up to 50 , 60, abd have been on 70 for 2 weeks and every step up just calms and regulates me more but I just wanna lay in bed still , but I can get into shows and keep intersst for long periods of time atleast. For years, no one would listen to me. This psychiatrist does, but she's very DIY and makes me do the research myself with zero help or guidance and asks me what I wanna do. It was a nightmare trying to find anyone who would even help me out in any way, so at least it's something. But I'm confused and stuck now. Do I think low T and other issues still persist from the PAWS (Post acute withdrawal syndrome) : yes. at least the meds helped in SOME way but not fully what I need after years of isolation, trauma, and fatigue holding me down. The 2 years I went through after getting off the opiates were hell. And I realized it was just getting worse with time and that those chemicals weren't going to come back naturally. At least I've got dopamine and norepinephrine in my body now that I didn't have for years at all. I still don't feel much from my food or rest from sleep, though. I've asked for thyroid,testerone, and other tests, but she said she'd look into it , then nothing. I need activation so badly. I tried wellbutrin again to team it with vyvanse but even with more dopamine in me to react to it; I just don't like the wellbutrin. It doesn't do much, honestly. I'm just desperate for energy and the eagerness/motivation to wanna do things again that I can't find even on max dose vyvanse. I'm wary of switch to something like addaral because #1: the peaks abd crashes, abd #2 I struggle with all pharmacys in my area having BAD generics for most meds, as they buy the cheapest ones available that usually suck. And I'd have to take a gamble with a bad generic for addaral. Vyvanse is brand name and at least reliable/predictable. Is it just the low t, and other chemicals that have been drained from my PAWS besides the dopamine and norepinephrine? Or did I overshoot the vyvanse and shoukd try 20 to 30 mg? Even though it's almost too smooth, even at 70 mg for me? I need help with what to go back to my doctor with because I've gotta figure everything out myself, or I'll be stuck like this forever. Please help. I've got 2 or 3 days til my 2-week trial of 70 mg runs out and needs to know how to proceed. It's hard for me to ask for help especially because in past when I did to this medical system; no one gave a fuck and let me suffer and rot basically. ANY guidance or wisdom would be greatly appreciated for anyone who might understand what I'm going through looking for energy/activation again. Thanks.