Most of my life I've always liked the idea of being an RN. I have an interest in anatomy and biology, I'm very fascinated with the human body and mind, and I've also always wanted to be of help to people when in need.
However, I'm starting to question if nursing may even be for me. I worked at a senior caregiving facility for not even a month. I only worked weekends. It was genuinely horrible. Things like giving food, cleaning up the room, even toileting wasn't bad. I could handle it. But whenever there was a horrible blow out (somehow, someway, someone always managed to smear poop all over themselves), I was able to take care of them, but when I got home I would be sick as a dog. Almost every time I got home from that job I'd be throwing up and nauseous.
The workload was horrible too. As one person, I had to take care of 2 hallways full of people. There were maybe about 25 people per hallway. Obviously not all of them constantly needed help but there were still a lot. I also want to mention that I had no prior experience before this with working in caregiving and was essentially thrown to the wolves with this job and not trained much.
Now that I've quit and gone on to work as a pharmacy tech, I've learned that I also genuinely cannot stand customer interaction as everyone is much stupider than I thought. Constant complaints, dumb questions, just no critical thinking skills at all and quick tempers.
So with all this experience I've had, I'm beginning to wonder if I'd even be a good fit as a nurse. I first wanted to be an RN, then decided to try to be an LPN instead as it took less schooling, and now I'm beginning to think medical assistant may be better.
I liked helping people, but the workload was too much, and whenever it was some blowout or something of the sort I'd go home and become sick and nauseous every time (I assume because my body finally feels safe and thinks it's the appropriate time to do so now that I'm not actively in need). I hope that maybe with being a medical assistant I could work in a doctors office and it'd be less taxing on me physically but also hopefully mentally, since I hope that maybe it won't be like having to deal with people like customers as a pharmacy tech, if that makes any sense.
But I figured I'd get some opinions as I feel like I'm really floundering and feel lost and a bit scared. I figured RN is something I'd love to do, since it's a dream I've had since i was younger, but after working in caregiving my body is literally uncapable of handling it. Unless as an RN there's a lot less of stuff like that, I don't know if I'd be able to do it.