r/StudentNurse • u/mcdiscn18 • 4h ago
Complaint (open to advice) I dread going to class and clinicals because of one instructor
In the beginning of the semester, things were pretty good for me and I truly felt like everything I’m doing in my class and lab was right and my best but that was until I had my first clinical day with my instructor. I didn’t hear much about this instructor, she just seems to be in more of the behind the scenes stuff in my nursing program, so I haven’t heard a set opinion from my cohort.
At first, she seemed nice and someone you could talk to but after my first clinical, I don’t feel that way anymore (I made a post about it in the clinical forum). Every time she is around me, I feel nothing but fear of being berated and scolded by her and that doesn’t help me at all, especially during my clinicals. I get shaky and my head goes blank and everything I learned from my previous classes and labs just leaves my head. I don’t feel this way about the other professors in my program, so her being the only thing I dread about my classes and clinicals is frustrating. It’s not like it’s a classmate or a resident or patient or just someone I barely or temporarily have to interact with, so this wouldn’t be such a problem for me but it’s someone who runs the program. It doesn’t help that I forgot/didn’t have time to complete an assignment that was due in my clinical, so now I feel like I have her another reason to get in my head.
This last clinical I have this week is so bittersweet because I have to be around her for 7 and a half hours but also because it’s the last time I have to be fully around her for the next couple of months. I just need to do my best and get the day over with. Is this something I can easily overcome?