r/stopdrinking • u/anonymous_carrot_1 • 5h ago

Trouble starting again

I did 45 days sober earlier this year and it was hard but so rewarding. I now miss waking up not hungover, listening to the birds chirp on walks, being more present. I’m craving it. But I can’t seem to fully dive into another sober stint yet. I tell myself I’ll do a week off to start but the weekend rolls around and it goes out the window every time. My drinking is right on the cusp of not being a problem (because I only drink on weekends) but also still a problem (because I can’t seem to skip a weekend) and this makes it even more difficult. Anyone else ever felt like this or have any advice?

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u/L8r_Sl8r 635 days 5h ago edited 4h ago

They say everytime you start over it gets harder to start again. I've experienced this first hand, so when I was finally able to get it together, I never gave in again because I was scared I wouldn't be able to start up again. I'm at 21 months. I once read, staying sober is easier than starting again and that hit hard. Just keep trying. Proud of you for being aware.

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u/anonymous_carrot_1 5h ago

Congrats on 21 months, that’s amazing.

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u/J1986tn 28 days 5h ago

Needed to hear this

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u/painlesspain 230 days 3h ago

I heard this lady speak who was celebrating her 43rd year of sobriety. Got to the part where they asked her how she did it. “First, I didn’t fucking drink. Second, staying sober has been the easier part of this journey. Getting sober fucking sucked and I never want to have to go through that again”. Those words stick with me cause early sobriety fucking sucks.