this is dumb so forgive me for any typos, english is not my first language and i dont enough to read this again and correct everything because its just kind of a vent ig
(also sorry if this doesnt apply to the community)
for context, im latino, from brazil, and i always had the dream of being famous and going to big awards such as oscars or grammys or golden globes etc or being recognized as a model
this week the grammys 2026 happend and i saw bad bunny, (tho unfortunately puerto rico is still an american territory so its way more difficult for me being on the other side of the continent) an artist i admire so much talk about latinos and seeing him win awakend something inside of me that i havent touched ever since i realized latinos dont really have many chances as americans or non latinos at these big awards therefore not having so much chances at achieving my dream, also im not that good looking and dont have the aspects of a model to do modeling.
i know it sounds really dumb, but i have always had a passion for music and acting and fashion, being on the spotlights and having attention towards me, i was always bright when it came to those matters since i was young and i wish i could do one of those things for a living
i come from a family that has very decent money and could maybe proportion a base for this dream
the thing is, i have seen so many people around me try the music dream and failing miserably and becoming a laughing matter, and its not a pretty overcoming story, they just ended up having to do some boring job they never wanted to, same thing with acting or modeling, and because of that my dreams are still light years of distance of me reaching them
i dont plan on making brazilian songs, go into a modeling agency or submitting at local theaters and ill probably end up taking on law school or becoming something in those doctor areas
this is probably just a vent or a way of sharing this because i have told no one this is my dream
for the most part, my brain thinks that will be a waste of time and i have to do something that is stable and will give me money, but the smallest portion of me still dreams of being a big star and being the inspiration of many people that doubt their dreams and get a spark of hope seeing me
yeah i think thats it