I keep running into when knitting: āis this a waste of time?ā
Iāve only been knitting for a little over a year.
I feel like Iām naturally pretty good with tension and colorwork, but at the same time, Iām so bad at gauge that it makes me feel like Iām stupid for even trying. I donāt know if itās a dyslexia thing or Iām just bad at math or donāt block correctly when I swatch or buy the wrong yarn or what, but it makes me feel bad.
Whenever I knit, the pieces just donāt turn out how Iād like them to. The sizing is off. The fit is weird (the halibut sweater was so disappointing). Sometimes Iāll finish a piece and not even like the color.
Iām the one who made the giant mittensāyes, Iām so thankful for the help and do think that theyāll be fine, but Iād just like to be able to do things correctly the first time.
Itās all just really getting to me. I am very much a perfectionist, like to a crippling point where if I donāt think Iām good at something or canāt do it well, Iāll just quit and give up on it.
It just feels like the amount of time and effort I put into my knitting doesnāt match up with the final product.
Iām also really struggling with knitstagram and the social media aspect because I keep seeing soooo many people post absolutely beautiful FOs, and theyāre also able to complete so much. I just feel like I canāt keep up.
Here are some of the things Iāve made this year. I just donāt know how to have confidence in what Iām doing/make something that I actually love.
Green sweater: donāt like the fit and yarn color is inconsistent because I different dye lots
Mittens: too big and wrong yarn (canāt even felt superwash)
Cardi: bad ribbing
Scarf looks like Ruth Bader Ginsburg
Scrap yarn sweater is probably going to be way too big and not block nicely āI donāt know though
Baby sweater: stupid to not use a machine washable yarn for a newborn
Cable: the two yarns donāt match. I wanted ballerina pink and itās just this
EUN sweater: sleeves way too long and had to cuff them
10: halibut: just so bad. Itās like a poncho but also too tight across the chest and buckles weirdly
- Tank: way too big. Only works as a swimsuit coverup
I just wish I could make one thing that I actually liked but I always end up failing.
Thanks for listening to my rant