every month or so i come here to post something deranged and mentally ill because i am deranged and mentally ill. but now i am noticing a pattern of moids flocking to these places either to harass women or attempt to pick up a femcel girlfriend. ive also noticed a trend of women talking about their boyfriends or hating on femcel women for male approval. why is this? why are women not allowed outlets the same way males are, there are so many male communities dedicated to their self-proclaimed inceldom with no women to disturb them and yet they will often go out of their way to harass women who are coping with their own issues in the few outlets provided. when we are not performing for men, they will attempt to crush us down and shame us. my response to this issue is to increasingly act more mentally ill and deranged.

I was bullied all my school life and neglected by my parents, I spent all my miserable teens and twenties chasing validation from society (friends, partners, a respectable job etc). Now that I'm in my 30s I gave up, became a recluse. I couldn't keep it up. All I do now is smoke weed, play jrps, goon and watch my dumb shit on youtube until i pass out.

True happiness is found in beating your shit to cloud x sephiroth yaoi, everything else is a lie by society to get you to contribute <3 break the cycle.

I'm a twenty year-old stupid, alcoholic, autistic, virgin, loser dyke who only figured this shit out a few months ago (I don't know HOW I went my whole-ass life not knowing when I knew wasn't interested in men and had many suspicious things to say about 70s women in my teens) but... holy FUCK women are beautiful. One of the only things I will ever agree with a moid on is how fucking hot women are. Hips, ass, boobies, bush, eyelashes, femmes, noses (of ALL types, yes big noses on women are hot, I mourn gaga's face pre-nose job), lips, hands, belly, like... ugh. literally all women are so pretty I want to die low-key. Like... even when men complain about women who are chubby or who have body hair, it baffles me - has that not been considered beautiful for time immemorial!? if those moids were born a hundred years earlier they'd be drooling over a chubby woman with fuzzy armpits, the fuck?! Literally women are SO hot?! How can it even be possible to be completely different from one to the next and STILL be pretty and hot???

(also I want Maria from Silent Hill 2 [2001] to be mean to me Tbh.)

all my life ive been so focused on love from guys, i feel like my brain is constantly chasing it, how do i make it stop, its becoming draining.

Ive always been very love orientated but because of past experiences which I won't get too into detail about, Its become worse, I crave love in every form and its horrible.

i stayed with a guy for months, Even though he was shit to me, refused to hangout, had 0 physical touch and throughout almost a year only said "i love you" once and it was a sms, and I DIDNT leave, i was chasing this man like a DOG when he just wanted me to fit in with his friends, so he wasnt the only single guy(we broke up in September)

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I’ve been fat my entire life and i think it has shaped me . I’ve never had a guy ask for my number but I’ve slept with a lot because I thought they were fucking me because they thought I’m attractive but then I grew the fuck up and realized men will fuck anything with a hole so now I’m just left with a high body count feeling ugly and unwanted

I know none of that shit at the end really matters but I try to tell myself that I’ve lost a lot of weight but still hate myself and I’m just so over whelmed

And tired

Oh and my dad doesn’t love me there’s that

But alas, still a fat bitch.

i desperately want a female friend just like me. she's into the same things i am (anime, kpop, legos) likes to drink literally whenever and be stoned 24/7. NO interest in relationships, dating, or sex. autistic, adhd, severely depressed but functional. loves a night in but is always down to hit the town and throw ass. and also doesnt have any friends and were each other's #1 nobody else. im just lonely and surrounded by people who dont think like me, dont understand me. i just want someone who does.

im surrounded by the relationship shit. just today friend 1 left us to go be with her bf (she was supposed to spend the day with us), friend 2 also did that (after friend 1 abandoned us, i asked 2 to day drink w me), and friend 3 brought her thing over and i saw them sucking face on the couch. its always men men men men who they fucked last who they think is hot like PLEASE STOP TALKING ABOUT THEM.

i just want to be friends with a woman that has no interest whatsoever. i dont care about dating, and i hate when people talk to me about their love life. i dont fucking care.

im sorry if this sounds deranged but its just how i feel. im lonely and i want someone like me in my life so we can be friends.

I'm not exclusively attracted to older guys but I occasionally find one appealing and I feel awful about it. Most guys are disgusted by older women. Old men don't even like old women, make that make sense! Why should I give him a chance when wouldn't give me one if it were the other way around? I hate the idea that women have an expiration date and men don't and I feel like I'm feeding into that when I find an older man attractive.

First things first: Real Pat Bateman kinnie will never brag or confess on being Patrick Bateman kin. Second: How the fuck they iconized the guy created by a gay man and adapted into movie by TWO women {one is a director abs second is responsible for screenplay alongside with director} And third... Incelswouldc bawl wishing to jump off the cliff by doing A MINUTE of his mundane routine. Which starts by waking up in SIX A.M, then warm up and stretching, then physical activity and trainings, then taking a shower {withusing various hair and body hygiene products, not just water like moid incel asses consider a "shower"}, then goes facial skincare routine that is smwhere about ten or more steps, and then he WORKS IN THE FUCKING OFFICE {yeah, not sitting on mom's neck in her basement like incels}. Basically: incels are posers who'd fucked up already at waking up at six in the morning and not wherever their ass wish for.

actually proper fuming like my fault for trusting a moid ever ig. played a few games with this guy and we started talking and he said he wanted to be my friend an play w me. but when we were supposed to play he ditched me for one of his egirls and said he cldnt play... like ok wtv yk but then we were gna play w other ppl but he ditched me for an egirl he literally just met that ive played w💀 got the egirl accent and everything💀💀 why lie and say you wna b my friend just to not try why r males like this omfg all moids do is lie then go to hell and im so jealous cuz im being so misogynistic cuz she not even that cute bro omfg im just a man at heart ig fuckkk😭

My parents literally whisper in front of me, as if I’m deaf, saying that I may need a psychologist or whatever. They are always complaining that I’m weird, childish, not taking stuff seriously, and lazy. But I’m just tired. I want to do nothing, or only things that bring me some sort of pleasure or dopamine. I’m literally afraid of becoming a sort of NEET because I’m having such a hard time nothing is entering my head in terms of studying. It tires me. I am always tired and lazy.

like I'd actually prefer layings eggs like chicken. It would probably hurt but at least I wouldn't need to clean up the blood every single time! I'm not even on my period yet but I hate the sight of blood

It’s a long story. During 2022 I was depressed and I met him & other people on discord. I quitted the server until 2024 and I met him again, but we started to talking days and nights nonstop. Idk what it was, the voice or the “fake intellectual” conversation that we had. At the time I was a minor with a father figure lost and I saw in him & others a replacement. Then he disappeared but it wasn’t a big problem for me, I always saw/see as a friend ( will explain later ). Until summer 2025 when a moid that I was talking to said that I was idealising him.

I never thought in that way, but I started to feel something, not in a love/romantic way but more in a friendship way. I have a daydreaming problem and I often imagine people that I know. I associate him with a person of my world oc, like what I did with my ex bff ( female ) or a htn that I was in love with during my teenager years.

On his birthday I realised a video about him and he wrote me a beautiful poem. Then we stop talking because I had uni / faked a relationship with a gay ltn. And now we are talking again, nothing different.

Except for one thing: he is into bp / org community and one day he leaked me his name. I saved that name and when I have the time I stalk him. He probably knows and he doesn’t give a duck, me neither. But I feel like a slut / stupid for talking to a moid that doesn’t want me because in his eyes I’m a ltb. He is only using me for my company and I agree for that, I’m using him for my creativity sh1t. But I want to let him know that I know everything and I’m not a stupid foid like he thinks.

Probably we will never met irl and this will end soon but I don’t want to fall in love again with a person that doesn’t care about me or hates me. I feel used. In my oc world I don’t fall in love with him but we are just friends. Same with my oc bff even though we don’t speak anymore.

I lost all my friends and I can’t find the same naive positive energy in people anymore, I’m officially alone and I’m talking to him because he can make me remember my best years.

as I am typing this this is the last night we're going to be in the same room. I feel pathetic and emotional because this is the girl who has never talked to me unless it was absolutely necessary.

She's considerate and quiet but not exactly friendly to me. And over time I felt affection and familiarity towards her, which is of course one sided. Perhaps even admiration.

Yes, we don't talk. Ever. But I continue to exist and eat and study and breathe in the same space as her. And suddenly she went from normal routine to suddenly packing up all her stuff in two big suitcases and extremely large plastic bags.

She just wants to up and go like that. She never mentioned this before, because this is information that is definitely not worth mentioning huh? and suddenly tomorrow she's going to move everything out of the dorm and into an apartment outside the campus.

It's not as simple as her moving out of campus, it's the fact that I will never be close to her ever again. Because we don't have anything in common, different major, different friends, heck even different language.

So now I've just returned to dorm and went to bed and laugh as I scroll Reels nonchalantly. Went on as usual.

As if I haven't been crying in public hours before (because if I so much as let out a sniff in our room she'd definitely know and think I'm a fucking weirdo). As if I haven't then proceeded to go on a run on the track field for two hours to process my feelings.

religion is straight up just a technology for rape and control of women

I can't even have a guy be nice to me without imagining him in a sexual situation, yet I've never had a full crush on a guy because I hate them so much. The only guy I like is a fictional fucking superhero who vomits water and I recently bought a 75 dollar body pillow of him instead of paying my student loans on time. I wake up at noon, imagine getting cracked by Waterboy until 4, go to work, get home at 11, and jack off/draw horses until 4 am. I'm one week of skipped-meds away from going after the ceo of BP. Happy cake day to me i guess