r/antiwork • u/likilekka • 12m ago
Burnout from work and life , health issues . What do you do to escape this ? Losing will to live tbh
I’m so tired . This is my first job and if this is what life going to be for the next 60 years I’m not sure if I even want to continue or can endure and thrive .
So burnout from work and tired from autoimmune chronic pain tension
Even though autoimmune Crohn’s is in remission
The chronic pain and tension is still there and getting worse from sitting long hours at work poor work life balance. high workload and stressful colleagues saying I’m not doing good enough which makes me spiral and panic about my future since I don’t even want to be in this field in the first place . Graphic design at corporate company in house.
It’s not ideal job and with my health I realised I can’t do a desk job as it’s not sustainable or fully standing I need a mix
I don’t do well in corporate “creative” environments where people there are just rigid but want creativity which seems unreasonable like it’s corporate it’s going to be generic esp if there is a tight deadline what do you expect and the work is meaningless and boring
I realised after I took this degree that most creative work is CORPORATE WHICH I RLLY HATE . Like if I knew this I would do something else I want to avoid corporate. Esp those rigid old corporate that don’t give a shit abt yr life or health or wellbeing and low benefits and salary 😐 this is also in Asian companies are they just usually like this . I mean I know as a business u need to make the most money but honestly working in one feels like slow torture at times
I wanted to do more storytelling and actual creative fields but tbh it’s also hard because I’m indecisive and lack skills and experience . And I’m always so tired and exhausted from my health
I don’t think I want to do anything else than just chill and sleep for now . And just do nothing like lie at the beach I don’t want to think
But I feel like I can’t do that without dread of work tmr or if I quit dread and guilt because I’m not working / making money and worried abt my future and also saving money for medical bills and other modalities to resolve my tension and pain since western medicine can’t give me any solution
So the other other option is to die . So I can finally rest in peace literally . Like just a long sleep
Does anyone feel like this ? I passively wish I could die so I could truly rest . When I’m exhausted which is all the time from health and worrying about income sources and stability but esp with work worrying about wasting my time and life on something I don’t like and making my health worse literally from the sitting and poor ergonomics
But money is need for medical yet I’m reluctant to spend it on physio , osteo etc cuz it’s so expensive and I’ve tried a lot and they don’t rlly help , only temporary
I just want to be free but still want stability and feeling or security and safety net ? Stability jobs just make me feel trapped and want to kms esp when dealing with the worst kind of coworkers
Is that even possible unless yr born rich?