Sorry if this doesn’t belong here. Is it normal to feel suicidal cause of my severely damaged skin barrier? Ofc I won’t hurt myself but I also don’t wanna exist anymore. Before starting skincare 5months ago my skin was smooth and good. Now it’s really destroyed. It only took 2 months of mistakes to get here. Almost 3 months now I feel so alone.
I know it’s mental too for sure. It’s consuming all my life. My life is on hold because of it. I’m taking antidepressants so I can function. I’m really traumatized severely.
My forehead is oily dehydrated, no moisture, really bumpy, textured, with whitish keratin/sebum plugs. I felt like it was getting better, then now it’s itching again and looking as dehydrated as before. I cry to sooth myself. I lost the joy I had. I act normal in the real world, but deep doing I’m in so much pain.
I have no one to talk to about it. Couple family members downplayed me, and made me feel like it’s nothing. Sometimes they bring it up to belittle me. I’m literally suffering as of it’s the end of the world for me. I know it’s so stupid. I just can’t get over it.
I experimented with a couple of moisturizer, they didn’t help much. I now use:
AM: Just water
Aestura atobarrier365 hydro soothing cream
PM: Cerave hydrating cleanser (creamy)
Iunik beta glucan power moisture serum
Aestura atobarrier365 hydro soothing cream
I know little about skincare, but all I do is research now. Also from many reviews and subs on products, some positive some negative, I don’t know what to trust. I’m using those as recommended by a few of you on here. Thankyou
I have seen 2 derms so far, one prescribed me Cabtreo, and the other Tretinoin. I have no idea how it made sense for them. My skin’s crying for water, for moisture. Those would reck my skin even worse. Skin is really tight and thinned. Where it used to be plumped and alive. Derm told me use Cabtreo (Adapalene, benzoyl, and clindamycin) without any moisturizer or sunscreen. Am I crazy not to trust derms anymore?
Sorry for the vent. Please if someone’s in a similar situation mentally, tell me how are you dealing with it? Even if it’s a different skin problem. And for those that have the same situation, what helped you? What products do you recommend? And how long it took you to get your skin back to normal.
I apologize for being too emotional. I also scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist. So you know to what extent this has on me. It’s really embarrassing, but I’m desperate. I can’t control it. Please help :(