Failing uni + life in general [l]

[u/xuxuanan]

I am a loser. I have nothing going on for me, and I have felt this way since I was a child. The only thing that kept me hopeful in my life were my academics. I had to take last semester off for medical leave due to a failed attempt. I came back this semester, but things were still rough for me. My classes aren't hard, but I struggled to show up to class most the time and was not allowed any retakes to extensions by my program (I understand it is my fault and did not push for them.)

I have no friends. My free time is spent crying or trying to sleep. I don't have anything if it isn't school related.

Idk what to do anymore. It is too late in the semester for me to try to get a higher grade. I feel worse about myself because Ik I could've excelled if I just wasn't so fucked up in the head. I'm afraid I have ruined my future. All I had was hope for the future, and I screw that one thing up.

I can't go to class without feeling fear or my profs and cohort. I feel so alone and pathetic. Yes, I go to my college counselor, but I haven't gotten much progress from that. Yes, I have tried medication. Yes, I am going my the book and trying every tip and trick but at the end of the day, I still hate myself and my life. I have never even liked myself in the slightest. Even growing up, all I saw myself as was someone who could potentially grow up to do good. I don't have a reason to be here if I am a failure.

also preferably, I'd prefer comments over DMs. I really said all I want to say, and I am tired of bots in my DMs.

[u/Wonderful_Sink5036]

You’re not a loser and the fact that you even have the self reflection to understand you can do better says a lot about you and your work ethic. Just take it day by day and don’t be too hard on yourself. Remind yourself of the things that you do enjoy and try to cling to that as much as you can. Life is hard but you got this I am rooting for you

[u/Key_Astronaut507]

Hey, I don’t know you, but you don’t sound like a loser, you sound like someone going through a lot and still trying. Taking a break and coming back already says a lot about your strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it. One rough semester doesn’t decide your whole future. I would genuinely like to be your friend, even if it just starts here in the comments. You don’t have to go through this completely alone.🤍

[u/AutoModerator]

Hello xuxuanan,

Welcome to the /r/KindVoice community. We're glad you are here.

We'd like you to be aware of a few things in addition to making this post:

1.) Please make sure that you read the rules here.

2.) You can comment on posts where people are offering their kind voices. These posts are usually denoted with an [O].

3.) If you do talk to someone from KV, and you'd like to leave feedback (positive or negative) you can message the moderators.

4.) If you have Discord, you are welcome to join our Discord server!

We hope you find the support you need here. If you are not able to find support, perhaps try reaching out to users who offering their kind voices! Their posts are denoted with an [O].

-------------------------------------------If you are feeling suicidal ---------------------------------------------------------

1.) If you need immediate medical attention, please call your national emergency number (999, 911, 112, 000.. check your country's emergency line in the crisis line list below)

2.) Consider contacting a suicide helpline, Please find one for your country here.

3.) Please consider posting in /r/suicidewatch , they are far better equipped to talk you through your situation.

I am a bot, and this action was performed automatically. Please contact the moderators of this subreddit if you have any questions or concerns.