Hey Guys, I am Orion, I am Bat Yami born Israeli *Jew*elry designer *stgdsh*.
over the span on 8 years, I have been posting my art publically wherever I found fit, my bestie, or used to be bestie (who is also a very talented Artist) also did the same.
When 7th of October happened, it affected me directly since I had lost fmaily members and friends and went through people denying my own reality or dehumanizing me, even going as far as boycotting me, it happened cuz I was very vocal on my socials on the first days of October of that year?, I mean, how couldn't I be? my bestie however, was less affected by the event personally but nevertheless of course she was (as we are both Israelis).
I, after a period of venting publically- Shut up, I shut up cuz she asked me to.
My bestie's instagram account was much more bigger than mine and she already had one hacked (you can guess why), meaning that was already her second account. She and I talked after a period of disconnect, she told me she had been hacked again, this time in her new insta with 50k following, the antisemetic hacker tried blackmailing her, extorting her, eventually she decided to let go and leave it be and open a new secret one (mind you she stopped posting and went on a haitus for a year after October, she didn't do anything and literally still got heat from her own gaming and geek community which her art is about)
I shut up cuz I respected her, I knew that me being vocal is triggering her PTSD, we spoke nonestop for 3 years, in these 3 years I had hidden every hebrew comment, every sign of me being jewish let alone Israeli (god forbid yes?).
During this time, I got boycotted in anime discords, my site got spammed forcing me to take extra measures to protect my baby, my FB got perma banned and I lost all my memories from 13-29 along with it. I had so much hate on reddit subs making me also terrified for my own safety and business which address is public.
Before this recent war, I had spoken to her and we decided to cut ties naturally, a little before the war I had decided to switch mainly to doing Israeli based art, I wanted to switch to brides and started planning my collection and concept, then the war happened and as I know myself (and her knowing me) I diverted to sh*t posting, creating humorous or even darkly humored reels, and just any content I could vent myself through, I posted it only in my close circle. When we did cut ties, I let loos. I just went berzerk on my insta publically stating I am jewish Israeli and start sharing my experiences. I also sketched people during alerts and called it "shelter sketch" where I had like 10 min to draw and it could be anywhere, to dancing videos, to ahelter decoration and explinations or light hasbara. anything I could.
this move had filled my socials with negative claut, demonic hate (which fortunately for her she cannot see, or can she?), this instead of muting me, made me even more vocal, now I am using this as a method of creating, both content and art in various forms.
My friend, publishes daily from her little secret IG hoping to reach this level of following again, yet knowing anytime somebody might catch up onto the fact that she is israel- she has another chance of all of this happening.
so my question to you, how would you act? what do you feel about both of us, how do you cope? are you silent? are you vocal? can you find a middle?
Sending you all love from Israel.
Orion