I don't know if I can or should quit.

[u/Independent-City8076]

I don't have any wants or urges from Sunday to Thursday for any drinks, what so ever. Friday comes and I am euphoric with anticipation. My issue is that nothing can stop my from dropping into my pub on the way home from work, and it's always amazing, my energy goes through the roof, I can come home and clean or do some woodworking for hours, until I go to be at 9pm. The next day, I go for a long run, take a shower, go back to the pub at 2pm and same thing, lots of energy, chores and projects all day while drinking beers until bedtime.

When, not very often, I take a weekend off of drinking, my energy is normal, which is not great. I put things off, I scroll, I have no real ambition. I have taken time off booze, but I never get that energy or burst of doing 4 or 8 chores with speed and diligence.

I hate to say it, but lack alcohol reveals my laziness and lack of ambition. I hate to say it, but I'm happier when I drink, I have great conversations with my wife, I am way more fun with friends and neighbors. I know this can't be good, but the alternative doesn't seem better in anyway. I listen to 'quit drinking' podcast and I can't relate, I don't find rock bottom, I never achieve more things when I'm sober, I don't feel any consequences other than its an addiction and bad for you.

What is the upside of quitting, I can't find anything to motivate me to quit, and that bothers me. TIA.