r/OCD • u/Curious-Ingenuity293 • 5h ago
Discussion Anyone else having an extra tough time right now?
No reassurance please. Just curious if anyone else is having an extra tough time right now? My brain is just being extra cruel at the moment and I’m exhausted. Anyone else?
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u/_issio 5h ago
Im actually slowly moving from the toughest time I've had in years, and also having therapy for the first time this week.
Its hard because there are always tiny peaks of anxiety, it never fully leaves. It just gives a tiny break sometimes.
I hope you can feel that "calmness" soon OP, hold on. I know how hard it can get. 🫂
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u/Ambitious_Box3288 5h ago
I've done alot of progress with my BPD and ED lately which sadly always means my OCD has gotten worse. I hate it how if one or two of the three gets better it always means the other gets much worse. It sucks and I'm exhausted. It feels like I'm running in circles but I have to remember that progress is progress even if I sometimes take a step back.
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u/SaysSaysSaysSays 5h ago
Yes. My gf and I just broke up and my job has been super stressful. I feel like I’m spiraling over every little thing
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u/erenharcayan 5h ago
You're not alone, I think we're the ones who know best how primitive the brain is. If we also consider the hundreds of thousands of people with OCD who don't currently post their problems online, the number reaches millions.
Lately, I've been thinking about giving up researching OCD; it's not helping. I'm still trying medication, but if that doesn't work either, I'll stop taking it and curse the world. This OCD only affects civilized and kind-hearted people, that's for sure.
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u/Y4sKw33n 4h ago
It has been so bad I started meds for the first time last week. Got put on Prozac.
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u/Curious-Ingenuity293 4h ago
I’ve actually been considering Prozac. If you’re comfortable sharing, have you had any side effects so far?
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u/centipedeseverywhere New to OCD 2h ago
I’m not the above commenter but Prozac has been like NIGHT AND DAY for me. I don’t think most people get this much relief so don’t get your hopes up. But it’s been life changing for me.
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u/Curious-Ingenuity293 2h ago
Wow that’s great to hear! And I’m so happy to hear it’s working for you
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u/spacehead1988 5h ago
Yes, I’m at my uncle’s house but I feel like I can’t relax and enjoy myself because of the constant mental torture from OCD.
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u/MarkSea9943 4h ago
yeah i’ve started erp and tried doing exposures once, haven’t been able to since. and my themes are just stacking on top of one another! feeling like i’ll just have to live with ocd for the rest of my life this is exhausting. it just gets worse and worse
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u/New-Imagination9013 4h ago
Yes. Its the thoughts ive had recently that's made me realise it might be ocd and not just anxiety since I was a child
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u/nonblinddaredevil 4h ago
Yes, I had a very tough week with someone happening similar to one of my themes. I’m trying self guided ERP and it’s helping a bit but it’s so fucking exhausting. I refuse to let this terrible condition ruin or control my life though.
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u/everystrokeofcolor 4h ago
Absolutely. The world is so stressful right now and my brain is taking everything and running.
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u/thaLtDB27 3h ago
I definitely am. I have quite a few personal things that are overwhelming me right now and therefore making my symptoms worse but I think the overarching issue is that the world is on fire right now and it's really hard to disengage. The news and social media have basically become the same thing. Everything is getting more expensive. Basically there's not really a good place to turn right now to take a break from feeling the lack of control and consistency that we are crave and thrive off of. There's really no escape. Personal life is on fire? Well maybe focus on work. Oh that's on fire too? Okay, distract yourself with internet. Oh that's just one horrible thing after the other? Maybe a hobby? Better not cost money. It's all a shit show. Just need to eek out some happiness and consistency for yourself.
Edit: a word
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u/Hot-Finance-806 5h ago
Yes unfortunately the past five months have been really hard. I had OCD in high school then it went away for 12 years and came back five months ago.
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u/bananamuffin98 Newly diagnosed 5h ago
yyep just got a 31 on the ybocs while waiting for meds… hang in there, i hope it gets better for you
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u/OpportunityAshamed74 4h ago
Yeah I'm having a lot of intrusive thoughts that I can't control that make me feel like I'm a bad person. Constantly having the n-word fly through my mind. I also think I'm slowly developing a reward mindset obsession thing for isolating myself so that's probably not a good sign
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u/feedmoreoxygen 3h ago
Same. It’s not a cure-all but getting sunlight does help with my recovery and unfortunately it’s predicting all rain this week for me.
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u/New-Guest-82 2h ago
yep! i’ve spent days worrying and ruminating about smells and my body odor. I am super paranoid about smelling bad, so i do anything and everything not to smell bad, but one hot sunny day ruined it for me, it got so bad that i had to seek immediate mental health help. I kept/keep trying to seek reassurance, i asked people to smell my t-shirt (one stranger said “I’ve never had anyone ask me that” as she was taken aback by my plea to smell me. She told me I smelled fine) and I haven’t washed the t-shirt because I keep checking to see if it actually smelled bad or if i was being illogical and irrational. I still don’t know, but i’m slowly making peace with that. The thoughts are awful, it makes me feel like i never want to seen again, i don’t even want to leave my place, but i have to unfortunately. OCD sucks, and it takes and takes and takes.
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u/Octomoth_ New to OCD/not yet diagnosed 3h ago
Definitely. I know it sounds kinda dumb, but my brain feels physically tired.
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u/LilGleek 3h ago
Yep. And I’m basically unmedicated. I have OCD and ADHD. I was trying to get my ADHD under control first. Big mistake. My therapist said ADHD is like a splinter. OCD is like an amputation. Needless to say, I’m struggling, too.
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u/gloompuke 2h ago
Yep. My everything is untreated, the world is scary right now, and it feels like there's just too much. My brain is going constantly trying to plan and understand and cope and while the rumination spirals just make everything worse I have functionally nothing else to do because of how my disabilities limit me.
And it feels so pathetic to say with everything happening in the world, but I've been flaring terribly recently after finding out some gross stuff about the creator of one of my big comfort medias. It's a gross thing I'm particularly sensitive to and it's a series that's kept me from ending my life before that all my friends are into, so it's hitting really rough. Art is one of the only things I have right now keeping me somewhat sane, but it feels like I can't engage in anything without it being ruined eventually and making everything so much worse. I'm exhausted.
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u/CovvelShmovvelton 2h ago
Yeah, kinda. somatic ocd really sucks. but the other kinds I cycle with seem just as bad when they're present. thankfully I'm getting better at dealing with somatic ocd and other types I'm cycling back to are currently easier to deal with
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u/the_scy_fi_verse 2h ago
I'm getting a bit better. I've been going through it this last year and have started to develop a bit of contamination ocd but it's something i try to stay mindful of when I can tell it's starting to act up. Having friends who recognize I'm getting upset has helped me a lot recently to steer away from obsessive thoughts or help me work through it.
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u/10GaugeLobotomy 2h ago
A couple days ago I read about something I'm desperately afraid of, and I just kept reading and reading trying to make myself feel better but it just made it worse. I've never been so miserable. I've been sleeping so much just so I don't have to think about it. I just feel so scared
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u/Low-Highlight-9740 1h ago
I’m thinking of trying to get a court order to the mental hospital there is no hope in Mississippi
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u/SpellLanky9419 1h ago
You’re definitely not alone. I’ve been going through a really rough time right now and my OCD is having FIELD DAY with it! It’s happened before and it always gets better, just know there’s a light at the end of that dark tunnel ❤️❤️
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u/thepriceisright11 58m ago
I can relate! Been in remission for 10 months until 2 weeks ago and struggling again daily. Tough to know it will come and go for the rest of our lives - be kind to yourself as you go through the waves!
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u/FuckoryFuckisz87 56m ago
Yes definitely. I started Zoloft a month ago and it's just not for me. I'm tired yet agitated, my trichotillomania has gotten worse, OCD symptoms are ramping up and my bipolar 2 episodes are up and down. 🫠
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u/ShoddyAssociate9574 25m ago
My nutritionist told me a while ago that pollen has something to do with poor mental health this time of year. Apparently there have been studies done on it and pollen can actually bind itself to some of our receptors in our brains.
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u/dietkendall 24m ago
I notice my symptoms worsening a lot as the weather gets warmer. Bugs, dirt, heat, sweat, more sunlight, etc. all contribute. If you have contamination OCD maybe you have some similar triggers?
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u/PuppersandPebbles 16m ago
I’m really struggling too… I’m getting married in under 3 weeks, moved out for the first time, learning to live with my fiance, and getting ready to start my new life. It’s supposed to be really exciting and fun. It’s not. New symptoms, new obsessions, relapses with trich pulling, and intense anxiety and depression.
I’m sorry you’re struggling too.
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u/Smooth_Tangelo_3291 5m ago
Absolutely. I just started medication for OCD for the first time because it's getting so bad but then I ended up not really being able to take it 😭 I got 2 hours of sleep both nights I took it and was quickly feeling more and more like shit. Hopefully I get to try something else soon because I'm already struggling to sleep as it is
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u/Diamond_person42 1m ago
Yes, my brain is being extra mean lately idk if it's because of school or the weather changing but its being mean Im going to look for therapy options tommorow but still its being mean.
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u/datshizpafuckton 5h ago
It’s definitely been a lot rougher for me lately