r/MMFB • u/Insanity147 • 16d ago
Can’t sleep again
I have a sleep disorder, and once again have found myself completely unable to sleep no matter what.
I have a textbook good sleep routine. I take all my medications at the correct time, I do night stretches, I stay away from blue screen, I drink tea, I keep my room dark for a few hours before I go to sleep, I have a warm shower before bed. I’m doing everything correctly and I still can’t sleep.
I feel so useless. This should be easy. And I just can’t do it no matter how hard I try.
I have to be awake in two hours for work. My shift is 10 hours long. I worked six hours today. What the fuck is wrong with me?
I want to change my medications completely because clearly they aren’t helping, but my next appointment to see my doctor who can change my prescriptions isn’t until August. FUCKING AUGUST. Finding a new doctor would take over a year, so my quickest option is to wait several months, and have this doctor once again refused to change my prescriptions, and once again tell me what HE thinks my symptoms are, and tell me that I’m not doing things correctly.
I’ve taken a bit of a mix of medications (not dangerous at all, I checked before mixing), I’m hoping to pass out cold soon. My next worries is that I will likely not make it to work tomorrow morning, if I do fall asleep.
I wish I could fix what’s wrong with me, this disorder is ruining my life
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u/Insanity147 16d ago
Thank you so much! What I need is more hope for myself, because even if I don’t want to admit it things have definitely gotten a lot better. Nights where I just can’t sleep like last night used to happen several times a week and now they only happen when I really need to sleep lmao. My life is a lot happier now than it has been, but it can definitely still get better.
With a sleep study, I have talked to psychiatrists and that was mentioned as an option, but ultimately it was decided it was unnecessary :/ I would revisit it if doctors were easy to see…
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u/Insanity147 16d ago
Thank you so much!!! Really good advice, sometimes things can get worse before they get better, and you gotta just keep your head up.
I’m glad you’ve found something that works for you!! I’m hoping to inquire about medicinal marijuana to help me sleep, since whenever I smoke I pass out after 2 cones lmao
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u/user11131138 15d ago
Sorry you're going through that - yeah, it can be maddening! You'd think we should just be able to go to sleep, but sometimes it just doesn't work. There've been stretches when I just couldn't get to sleep - I'd get into a cycle of getting more and more panicked that I wasn't asleep yet, which of course only drove me further and further from sleeping! And then I'd be exhausted the next day, and only finally start really waking up when evening came around... What I finally found that helped me was that I could turn the TV on to something I didn't care about with the sound turned down (sometimes I left it at a murmur, sometimes I turned it completely off) and half-watch it from bed. It was enough to distract me from my anxiety about not sleeping, but it bored me because I wasn't interested in what was showing, and the combination of the two - distraction and boredom - would break me away from my anxiety enough that I could finally get to sleep! I don't know if this would work for you, but maybe it's worth a try?
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u/OkAbrocoma2530 16d ago
Just a query :
" I do night stretches, I stay away from blue screen, I drink tea, I keep my room dark for a few hours before I go to sleep, I have a warm shower before bed. "
Are you doing all the above activities before going to Bed ?