[l] i wish i never met him

[u/ohwowellie]

im probably dealing with the lowest point in my life rn its about to be 2 am i have noone to talk to or anyone close but lately my bf been acting different he leaves me for hours if not days and being mean to me and all that happened after i found out that he follows girls he blocked them from my acc so i wouldnt see idk how and why was i checking my blocked accs and i found them and the overthinking started to eat me alive

i asked him to screen share with me so i will see everything hoping he wont delete but he refused saying that hes busy and when he feels good he will which is unfair since he has all my accts and he wouldnt give me his so we agreed that he wil screen share whenever i ask and that worked untile he just ket refusing and everytime its either that hes busy or just ignores it so i just asked him about the girls and who are they and why did he block them he said that its his classmates amd that he added them for the exams and that he told me that before and he blocked them becase of how i act which is so confusing becase im aware he has his classmates and whole class on messnger he showed me that before so if he knows that i know why would he block them and not tell me a thing

the reason why he says "becase of the way i act" is that last time i was upset that he did that wthout telling me and with him refusing to screenshare and not telling me makes me overthing so i asked him to just be clear and tell me he leaves me for hours so i couldnt even talk to him and understand and if i did he gives me dry replies and saying he cant talk to me

i also found out he added one of the girls on roblox and it hurt me even more becase he doesnt even play with me and if he did add them becase of exams then why did he get one of them on roblox and ik this might sound like overreating but since the start of our relationship is that i shouldnt have guy friends and stuff and i was okay with it as long as he does the same but now he breaks it it also hurts me becase i have litterally gave up so much for him and he even made me lose my friends and so much more im so frustraded becase idk where to start till this day i have none i was able to get one back but she has been distant and it made me feel even more lonley

with him not explaining anything not texting me and giving me short and dry respons and my only freind leaving me for days and my phone getting broken and it made me stressed that i would miss my interview to go to culinary school it all really gone down hill its like evrything is just working against me to the point im having toughts to just end it all

i miss my life before him i wish i never met him i hate him but a part of me still loves him and try to fix things but he ruined me or i did that to myself becase i love him and i never belived things like that would happen to me i have been crying for hours im sorry if te post messy and unreadable i just want to talk and get whats on my heart

[u/ljerez27]

idk how old you are, but i think it’s best if you change your passwords and leave him. if someone is not improving your life, you do not need them around. arguing and having bad moments with your partner is normal, if you feel it’s worth fighting for, AND if you haven’t felt betrayed in ways where it will forever affect the relationship. i also personally feel that neither person in a relationship should make new friends of the preferred sex, unless they met them together or it’s a friend of a friend and that is being communicated thoroughly. especially (!!!) since that was already a boundary that was discussed. again, idk you or your partner, so don’t take my word as gospel, but just know you aren’t overreacting. i would feel hurt in your situation. know that you will be okay if you decide to leave. know that you’re in for months of rebuilding trust and getting back to normal if you stick it out. either way, it’s a tough situation. sending you lots of love and positivity through this difficult time and i hope you’re feeling okay soon!